One of the things that I am learning in prayer ministry is that, for everything that we do, there is a reason. Often it’s not, objectively speaking, a very good reason. From a practical point of view, however, the only thing that matters is that it makes sense to us when we make our decision about how to act. When faced with unknown, unexpected, overwhelming or terrifying things, we cope the best we can, doing the thing that seems best in the moment.
Often this reason is centred around avoiding things we don’t like. However, it’s rare that we’re ever aware enough to be honest about this, and it’s somewhat shocking when you run across it in clear text.
From Dave Winer ,
“I’ve learned if I say nothing that gets me the least angst. So that’s what I usually do, say nothing. And every time I do it, my blood pressure goes up a teeny bit, and another hair either falls out or goes gray. Or maybe it goes gray and then falls out.”
Dave probably wouldn’t tie this to issues of personal brokenness, but it’s a remarkably clear example of how we struggle with things in unspectacular fashion, on a depressingly ongoing basis.